Explaining Depression in 2017

EXPLAINING DEPRESSION TO FAMILY & FRIENDS: A CONVERSATION
1:50AM
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HEY MY DEPRESSION IS SUCH A FATE SHIFTER,
BAD DAYS TURNED INTO GOOD,
GOOD DAYS QUICKLY BLUE,
THE GOOD DAYS ARE ALWAYS DARK,
I'M NOT AFRAID OF THE DARK!
THEY TELL ME, MEDITATE, EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE!
IM CRYING INSIDE!!
IM CRYING WHILE WRITING THIS OUT OF TOWN FROM THE PLACE I LIVED MY WHOLE LIFE IN ANXIETY.

"THEM: ANXIETY?"

YES, ANXIETY.

"THEM: WHERE DID ANXIETY COME FROM?"

ITS THE LITTLE PERSON THAT HAS BEEN FOLLOWING ME AROUND SINCE I CAN REMEMBER, AGE 10.

MY HAPPY IS ANXIETY!
SEE, IT HOLDS ME,
NOT AT WILL,--
SEE GUYS,
MY I HAVE A CHOICE,
BUT MY DEPRESSION DICTATES MY DECISIONS AT TIMES!
I'M STILL LEARNING TO TAKE CONTROL.-
IM LONELY!
MY BAD EXPERIENCES TAUGHT ME HOW TO TURN ANGER INTO LONELY,
THE LONELY INTO BUSY,
SO WHEN I SAY IM BUSY,
IM BUSY DEALING WITH MY ANXIETIES.
I CAN'T FOCUS ON YOU ALL THE TIME, MY MIND NEEDS ITS' TIME,
COMFORTING MY BODY ON MY BED,
SO WHEN I SAY IM BUSY,
I AM RESTING,
TRULY TRYING TO REST THE MIND, EITHER WRITING DOWN MY MIND OR WATCHING MY BLANK CANVAS WHILE I CRY INSIDE.
I'M JUST HUMAN GUYS,
ANXIETY IS JUST MY EXPERIENCE AT THE MOMENT.
YOU KNOW,
I'M JUST A HUMAN HAVING A HUMAN EXPERIENCE THAT HAS ONLY BEEN WITH ME SINCE 10,--
SO, YEA ANXIETY MAY NOT BE ME,
BUT IT SURE CREEPS IN WHEN IT FEELS LIKE DEPRESSION IS KICKING IN.

"THEM: I DIDN'T KNOW THIS IS HOW YOU'VE ALWAY FELT?"
YOU NEVER ASKED, YOU ONLY BLAMED MY ACTIONS WHEN I FELT I NEEDED TO SCREAM & BE ALONE.
BUT I GUESS THANK YOU,
BECAUSE IN 2017,
ANXIETY WILL NOT BE ME,
I WILL MOVE WITH ANXIETY INTO UNIVERSAL HARMONY.
THANK YOU FOR ACTUALLY LISTENING.
5/6/2017